Happy Birthday to my mommy

Today is my moms birthday she would be 58 today! Its hard to think that it was almost 13 years ago that she was taken from this life. I miss her more and more. She def was my best friend. We shared a lot of good memories in that short time I would never change them. Before I went to school all day we would come home and eat lunch, then we would go upstairs and lay down in her bed and watch Guiding Light, watching soaps started young. We would put on Celia Deon Because you loved me and sing our hearts out. She was the one who started my baking love. Maybe I love baking so much is because she is the one I would bake with sense I was super young.

I love facebook, finding people who you thought would always be in your life and a big part of it and then things happen and they arent. Finding them on facebook after a couple years after talking to them, and so so many years without seeing them. They never have left my heart nor my head. They will always be in my life no matter what because we have been through to much together. They were there for me through thick and thin in my life. I have missed them so much. I feel like I have found them when I truly needed them. when I needed someone from my past who knew my mom who are my family. She was my moms best friend she was the one who my mom would call and say I dont know what to wear and Peggy could tell her she knew what clothes my mom had. We would see each other at least every 3 months. They would talk on the phone forever prob everyday or close to that. Peggy out of everyone is def was/is my second mom. She always will be.out of everyone she is the only other person who held me like my mom did every time I needed it. Her boys were my other brothers and they sure did treat me like their sister, but they def treated me better then Greg at the time. They would make fun of me and tease me but they def were the sweetest boys I knew at the time.Now they have kids of their own. Where did the time go? What I do know is that they are prob amazing father and husbands. The youngest was the sweetest to me when I got badly hurt on a four wheeler. He knew I was okay from our mothers talking to each other but he had to call me himself to make sure I was okay. He prob is so embarrassed that I still remember and that I tell people. After years and years of not seeing them I can still remember the little things we have done. I can tell you from the main street in Vernal Utah how to get to their house. Yep I am that good.. I can tell you pretty much the layout in the house. The saddest part is that they don't live there anymore. One son still does and that fact I am not surprised. Brian he was the small town country boy sense I can remember. He loved the horses small town life. He always said he wouldn't move away from Vernal area. If he did I might be dead of a heart attack. the craziest things you can remember. Everyone has always told me how strong I am but I dont see what they do. I am not strong there are days where I am fine and it doesnt kill me every sec of the day that I cant talk to my mom that I cant call her up and ask for advise. Those times when I know that losing my mom was things are going to be okay. That my mom is in a better place. I always will know that and I do. Like everyone says we are all humans you go to that place hating everything before you realizing that its happening. I know my life is good I have amazing people in my life. That I am not always stuck in the past. One big wish I always have that I cant talk to my mom one more time. That I can see her beautiful face, get one more hug. and to hear her one last time that she loves me. If thats the only thing I would ever get in my life. I think I would be a okay with that....

Family

the end I of May my sister Cindy my brother Greg and my niece and I went to Utah to visit. It was my nieces first time on an airplane and the first time meeting my brother and sister in law and the three wonderful kids that they have. Also, to see the other family out there. It was great to see them all and to be there with my siblings. We havent been together like that in years. I wish that my other two sisters were there as well. I love my family as you can tell we dont know how to take serious pictures. haha I feel bad for everyone else because I have an amazing family. No matter what we are still close and we would do anything for one another. I dont talk to all my sibling all the the time but I do know that they are my biggest supporters that I have in my life right now! I am so grateful for them. Dont take your family for granted for you only get one family. the quote that says you chose your friends not your family. It is true but I feel that I did chose my family they were my first friends and my best friends. I know prob no one reads one. I love to get out.