I have the best people in my life who support and help and love me with everything I do!! My siblings are the best people i know!!! That they are here to support me and help me through my life, Most of them arent active in the church and yet all of them support me and my brother because they know that we are happy in the church. They help me through everything I am the Luckiest girls in my life. I have the best mother in the world who was there for me no matter what and I know that she is still here for me when I need her the most and I know that I can feel her with me when I need her the most. In times of need and in times when I am happy.

I have amazing friends in the world who show me support and give me strength when I need it the most. We have the best times and memories that I wouldnt want to change for the world. I know that I can go to them in time of need to talk. When I need to have a good time and forget about some hard time i have I know that I can go to them. They dont know how much they mean to me and how much I love them.. I am so glad that I have them in my life. They truly help me to be who I am today and how I stay so strong when I dont want to be strong anymore.

I LOVE EVERYONE IN MY LIFE!!!

what you get in the middle of the night

So I am sitting here watching P.S. I love you! I love this movie and this is not my first time and I am sitting here and she crying and I'm crying. Why do we have people in our lives and they are taken away so fast. I know there is a reason, but really I wasnt ready when my mom left me. and friends who arent really in my life anymore. I know there is a reason why they are in our lives and why they arent in our lives and we dont realize it for a long time after they are gone. I wish that some people who were a big part of my life were more in my life. I miss them a lot I feel like they never will be and it hurts because I still love them so much. but I know that they still are there and it my fault to because I dont make an effort as I should. Like the Peggy and Dan and their family I miss them so much and all the fun time we have. I know that they think about us as much as i think about them because when we do talk they always says that. but why cant we make that small effort to call them just if we get the answering machine just to say hello? why is it so hard?

Why do we feel so alone when we are not alone at all? I know we are never alone but when your in a room full of people and you still feel alone. I go through times when I feel like that I dont like it.

I need to stop watching chick flicks they just make me want a boyfriend,someone to share my life with but then they make me think deeper then I think I normally do on a every day basses.

day 4

Its been 4 days sense i have started no sugar, its been rough. I have had a headache for the past 3 days but Its getting better. Last night I so wanted to go get a milk shake but I didnt I just went home, and had fruit. THe hardest part is not to have bread but I decided to have one bread products once a day. $ days 26 days to go...

1st day without sugar its def hard but not as hard as i thought.... I did have bread for lunch but i def used a lot of sugar yesterday... I think i am off to a good start

So in Mathew i think it says to love you enemy, and that you hear to keep your enemy closer.Just to love everyone. We have always been taught this but there is someone who I dont get alone with at all I cant stand him and I just want to stay away from this person all that I can do. It is not like this person is a bad person just the thing they do and say. I am not trying to be mean when I dont like or hang out this them but for me its better I stay away from them much as possible or its not going to be pretty. I know it prob hurts their feeling I am not trying to be mean but for me I dont get along with everyone and no one does and they really get under my skin. But I know that I truly need to learn from the head guy and try to love him. I just did a talk about serving not only that but serving in the temple and we are taught as you serve people you start to love them. I need to be a better example to people around me and I need to put aside my feeling about this person and love them as Heavenly Father loves them by doing little service.

I am not one who doesnt care what people think more is they dont like me but this one person I really dont care.But I want to be a better person and an example to the people around me but also to my future children when or if something like this happens I can show them how they can love them as Jesus loves them and as Jesus love me.

SO Monday is a big day,I am doing a no sugar diet...pray i can do it...I CAN I need to put my mind into it. Itll be hard with the girls eating and I cook and going to activities with snack but Here I go just jumping right into it. thats the best way to go into the pool so why not this!!! updates to come

Emma

Its my best friends 21st birthday today!!!! when we were teens dreaming of when we are 21 or older and I def didnt see our life as single 21 year olds and still in connecticut!!!I love her so much we've gone through so much together.. I dont know how my life would be without my Emmy lou Jane Dingle!!! Love her so much!!!!

things

So I have been changing little parts of my life to get better. slowly as well, I started to going to the gym and eating better. I stopped drink Caffeine hard first but got easier. working on my sewing skills by sewing more. I have been thinking about going off sugar for 30 days. I want to but I dont know if I cant do it. I think i will try lets hope it goes good.

But on other news. I am so proud of my tough little Isaac. He is a little over a week old went through 2 surgeries within 2 days after he was born. He is the strongest person I can say I know. He is already home. When the doctors were saying 3 to 4 weeks in the hospital. The doctors after 9 days were like we are loosing things to keep him in the hospital. So he is home with the best parents I know. My brother Aj is the best big brother anyone could ask for he has been here for me through everything. He is such a amazing day I hope to have for my kids. I dont think he left his side for the first 2 days unless he was in surgery.and Lisa has been an amazing sister in law. I love them so much. but we cant forget Emily and Eli two sweetest big siblings for Isaac who have been praying for their little brother for Heavenly Father to look after him and he did answer their prayers and so many other peoples prayers as well. I cant wait to meet my little fighter nephew.
My family might now be the closest but when we need support and love around. We might now all be together but you can just feel the love. I love my siblings. I am so greatful for them and their support for me.I know that no matter what they are always here for me and they would and will do anything and help me. I am a lucky girl.