So some people annoy the heck out of me I read today about Mitt on fb and how he gave to the church hummane thing 4 million dollars and how that isnt really giving to charity because hes helping his "own" people in away and they give the money away to packet to people who dont need it. SHe just saying when she hasnt done work to see what they do. Thwe church is always one if not the first people there to help at many thing that happens and i think one of the last people to leave as longs as we still have where thing and we arent there to just help out other LDS people we are there for everyone and she saying how he needs to pay 13% to taxes well thats not a law he is paying the same amount as all the other rich people and your not saying anything abou thtem and I bet more of them dont give to charity or help anyone else they keep it for themselves and they are saying because of how rich he is and that he is LDS that he shouldnt be pres. thats crap to me. Some one else made a point how obama only gave 1% to charity. I feel like its their right to do what they want with the money they earn as long as its not illigal it should put to if he can run the country or not..I am not the smartest person in the world but if your going to back talk this then before you do. do your homework know the facts and dont get on one person cause and not the other wealth americans too

ok so i was thinking. We were taking about being perfect that things well the church things. but it goes for everything. I was thinking that your not perfect at anything you do. I dont want to be perfect because that means there is no room to grow. Also, I know people who only like doing things their perfect at well thats no way to live if
I did that i would do anything and life would be boring I love learning new things messing up and learning what I dont really want to do anymore. but are you really PERFECT at anything?
I dont really think you are because if you are that means that you mastered everything that goes into whatever it is and to me thats inpossible because new things come out all the time like cake Decorating a new skill you can learn or a new frosting or style comes out every coupld months if that. that means you are a genous and know what is coming out and find them before everyone else.

thinking

SO firday I was talking to my friends about how my dad started dating and how it really wasnt talked about it just happened all of a sudden and how i really didnt understand why and I couldnt stand it for a while. and still it bugs me that he is married to someone else like what about mom. what about my feeling about this its not like he is single and its just about him, you have kids shouldnt you get what they are feeling. I was watching a movie call Midway to Heaven and its about a guy who lost his wife and has a daughter she was a teen when her mom died. it was three years and he could really move on and his daughter was dating and pretty much engaged and he couldnt handle and then something changed and he started dating and his wife wanteed him to start dating he was a ghost to him and he wasnt ok with losing what they had together ]
it made me start thinking yes my mom was prob ok with my dad datin and getting married but I dont think she was okay with how he did it. he hide that he was dating at first then he hid that he got engaged tell he was ready to tell us. I would be okay with it but it want talked about I just felt how I felt didnt matter. If something happens like that when i have kids I want it to be talked about with them if they are young they are involved as much as he and her. I feel like if it me or my husband our kids matter their feeling matter.
my dad isnt really the one to just talk about things he never has there are things that it would have been nice to talk more about but ofcourse it wasnt talked about. Hes not the one who I really ever go to and talk to about life. I wish we did have a different relationship but its hard to change it I dont feel like we would ever have our old relationship back when we did talk and he was more then just my dad. who i talk to once a month if that. We mostly me have changed. I just hope that when i get married and have kids that I can change that with my kids that they know and feel like they can talk to me about anything that I can be there for them no matter what. my sisters and brothers I know that no matter what time it is and I need someone to talk to that they are there. I want to have that with my kids that not matter what time that i am there for them. no matter what time it is or what it is about.

random

So I am soo excited I am going to Utah in March to see my favorite family ever Aj and Lisa!!! and my new nephew Isaac! I cant wait to meet him! hopefully he will be strong for me to see him when i get there that the first weeks of his life he can push through some hard times!! and My sister and Dan are hopefully going to be there too!!! and Jane and Phil are getting married!!! who couldnt have asked for a better trip!
Talking about my brother I have always looked up to him not because he is taller then me but he is an amazing brother well at times hahah just kidding. We dont talk a lot but I know that if I need to talk or anything he is always here for me and so is Lisa and thats what I need! My brother always knows what to say to me when i need to feel better. And i havent really talked to him this past month but this past month they got news that is super hard for anyone to hear and they are had a hard time but He is thinkin so positive about everything, I know he is having a hard time but he is so strong!

So I have been going to the gym almost everyday this week. Thursday I did a class I don know the name but it was a class to learn how to relax through breathing and slow movement OH MY GOODNESS!! I was so relaxed in the middle of the class but I had so much energy afterwards it was amazing!!! I am doing that class every week. and the class yep youngest one there but the class was so nice they were like this is more then a class it is a family!! and the whole gym emma and I are one of the youngest people going here but its a great gym!!! It has a pool i love swimming but it also has a basketball court!!! YES!! when i saw that i was like where do i sign because really i love basketball!

Tell next time!

SO they says it takes 30 days to develop a habit and So I havent had caffin all month already so I am keep going I will not drink dr.pepper pepsi or any drinks with it in it!!! then maybe I will do no soda next but I havent really had soda either... and I am going to do boxing classes soon as I find a good one. and I found a place to do Zumba so maybe I get on that..

to do

so i was thinking of things I would love to do this year and i thought I would share
1. I would love to go live somewhere different even if its just for a year. nanny somewhere I dont know anyone.
2. get in shape
3. Try something new each month
4. Read a book each month
5. do a 5k and if possible do a half marathon one day
6. keep room clean
7. get things out of my life that i dont need anymore...shows stuff habits
more to come

2012

Its a New Years!!! I cant believe that its 2012 I feel like it was yesterday that i just celebrating the year of 2011 coming in Utah with Meghan and Tina at the insitute.
Now its 2012 and I am in Connecticut and i am nannying I feel like I am in a different place then I was a year ago I am not saying a better or a bad just a different I take care of three beautiful kids full time and driving a mini van. I have learned a lot in 2011 and about myself. I have to admit I want to get married I still do, but its not that much of I want it right now. I want to find more about myself became me before I get married.
That I can wait a while to start having kids. but I know now that I can do what I need to get done and run a house hold with three kids haha. but I am so greatfull. I have to admit I was always nervous/scared thinking when I get married I am running the house hold and I will prob work for the start and thats scary to me but now I know that I can do it.
I also know that the things I know I have always wanted when i was little are way more important right now to me then they have ever. I have dreams and I want to do them. I dont want to have all these dreams that when I am older I look back in my life and I havent done any like I would love to go to Chicago I would love to live there but even if I could go there and spend a week would be amazing. or to DC. DC is one of the coolest cities to me. I would love to be more comfortable with myself and with being single I hate going places a lone better, but people to go out to eat by themselves but I wont. I wont go to the movies by myself really I have done it once.


I am excited to see what 2012 has in store for me and see if I can knock some things off my dream list/bucket list this year!!!