2012

Its a New Years!!! I cant believe that its 2012 I feel like it was yesterday that i just celebrating the year of 2011 coming in Utah with Meghan and Tina at the insitute.
Now its 2012 and I am in Connecticut and i am nannying I feel like I am in a different place then I was a year ago I am not saying a better or a bad just a different I take care of three beautiful kids full time and driving a mini van. I have learned a lot in 2011 and about myself. I have to admit I want to get married I still do, but its not that much of I want it right now. I want to find more about myself became me before I get married.
That I can wait a while to start having kids. but I know now that I can do what I need to get done and run a house hold with three kids haha. but I am so greatfull. I have to admit I was always nervous/scared thinking when I get married I am running the house hold and I will prob work for the start and thats scary to me but now I know that I can do it.
I also know that the things I know I have always wanted when i was little are way more important right now to me then they have ever. I have dreams and I want to do them. I dont want to have all these dreams that when I am older I look back in my life and I havent done any like I would love to go to Chicago I would love to live there but even if I could go there and spend a week would be amazing. or to DC. DC is one of the coolest cities to me. I would love to be more comfortable with myself and with being single I hate going places a lone better, but people to go out to eat by themselves but I wont. I wont go to the movies by myself really I have done it once.


I am excited to see what 2012 has in store for me and see if I can knock some things off my dream list/bucket list this year!!!