I love facebook, finding people who you thought would always be in your life and a big part of it and then things happen and they arent. Finding them on facebook after a couple years after talking to them, and so so many years without seeing them. They never have left my heart nor my head. They will always be in my life no matter what because we have been through to much together. They were there for me through thick and thin in my life. I have missed them so much. I feel like I have found them when I truly needed them. when I needed someone from my past who knew my mom who are my family. She was my moms best friend she was the one who my mom would call and say I dont know what to wear and Peggy could tell her she knew what clothes my mom had. We would see each other at least every 3 months. They would talk on the phone forever prob everyday or close to that. Peggy out of everyone is def was/is my second mom. She always will be.out of everyone she is the only other person who held me like my mom did every time I needed it. Her boys were my other brothers and they sure did treat me like their sister, but they def treated me better then Greg at the time. They would make fun of me and tease me but they def were the sweetest boys I knew at the time.Now they have kids of their own. Where did the time go? What I do know is that they are prob amazing father and husbands. The youngest was the sweetest to me when I got badly hurt on a four wheeler. He knew I was okay from our mothers talking to each other but he had to call me himself to make sure I was okay. He prob is so embarrassed that I still remember and that I tell people. After years and years of not seeing them I can still remember the little things we have done. I can tell you from the main street in Vernal Utah how to get to their house. Yep I am that good.. I can tell you pretty much the layout in the house. The saddest part is that they don't live there anymore. One son still does and that fact I am not surprised. Brian he was the small town country boy sense I can remember. He loved the horses small town life. He always said he wouldn't move away from Vernal area. If he did I might be dead of a heart attack. the craziest things you can remember. Everyone has always told me how strong I am but I dont see what they do. I am not strong there are days where I am fine and it doesnt kill me every sec of the day that I cant talk to my mom that I cant call her up and ask for advise. Those times when I know that losing my mom was things are going to be okay. That my mom is in a better place. I always will know that and I do. Like everyone says we are all humans you go to that place hating everything before you realizing that its happening. I know my life is good I have amazing people in my life. That I am not always stuck in the past. One big wish I always have that I cant talk to my mom one more time. That I can see her beautiful face, get one more hug. and to hear her one last time that she loves me. If thats the only thing I would ever get in my life. I think I would be a okay with that....